afullmargin | Entries tagged with rambling

So, in the last few years my presence has sort of scattered to the winds, now I'm here to point anyone who cares to look in all the directions to find me and my writing. :)

Social Media:
Twitter - @afullmargin
(mostly unused) Facebook - C.A. Blocke
(Queue posts only) NSFW Reblog Tumblr - Marginally Pornographic

Stuff I've Written:
Fanfic - anemptymargin @AO3

Canyon Creek Love Story @Less Than Three Press

Fifteen years ago Robert left Canyon Creek behind, and has made a life as a junior detective in Brooklyn. When he returns home to attend his mother's funeral, however, circumstances make it difficult to leave again.

Stuck in the place he once tried to leave behind, helping his pregnant little sister, Robert meets Charlie, the sheriff's son now turned sheriff. He's kind and sweet, but also divorced with a young daughter to raise. But the more time passes, the more Robert wonders where he's really meant to be, and if that place just might be the home he once left behind.

Sound Proof @Less Than Three Press
When Chris is unceremoniously dumped by his longtime girlfriend, his best friend Thomas picks up the pieces and reminds him there's more to life than his lost relationship. In the process of letting go of a relationship that wasn't what he thought, Chris slowly comes to realize that everything he's ever wanted may have been right beneath his nose the whole time...

Beneath the Layers Anthology @Ninestar Press

A Secret Shared by C.A. Blocke

One sweet secret shared—and a spicy one returned.

SIO @Ninestar Press
Set in a near-future environment, mega-corporations have taken over the most habitable of planets, creating domed utopias for their devoted employees. Everyone else has been shunted off to a multitude of mostly habitable planets and moons where they scrape by as farmers and tradesfolk, miners and merchants, bounty hunters and scavengers.

James Marks and his crew of scav trash operate their ship, SIO, on a mission to obtain a mysterious piece of new tech. It changes everything and leaves him stranded somewhere he doesn’t recognize with a cute, if not a bit annoying, tech scientist. James doesn’t know, when he first meets Michael, but his life is about to change in a very surprising way.

Current Projects:
Almost finished with the initial draft of a sweet Single Dads erotic romance about learning to love again, blending families, and working through anxiety and loss.

Still considering and putting out feelers for an erotica short stories or serials Patreon or similar. Please contact me if you have any interest in this sort of thing! I'd love to hear from you.

My LJ (as you may have noticed) has gone only to crossposting and posting in communities, I just can't cope with LJ barely working for me when I *do* want to post.

That said, more often than not all I post here is fic. You wanna chat or read my thoughts? I'm *very* active over on twitter: HERE likely going protected again soonish due to asshats - if you friend me and I don't friend back within a day, post a comment or email or something and let me know. :)

My current fandom status is kind of all over the place and dodgy, I've been coping with some depression issues, my kids, my parents (omg dramaz for a 31 year old, I know) and getting ready to graduate with my AA and transfer out to ASU in the Fall so very busy on top of that. I've lost a lot of my headvoices in the last few months but am slowly working on getting them back to continue my RP in Milliways and some fic I've got half-finished. THEY WILL BE BACK. No worries, just not really feeling them right now.

That said, ya'll have probably noticed some new additions to the eclectic collection of my fandoms... don't judge me. :p

I'm so far behind on my AO3, DW & LJ comments it's not even funny... I'll catch up, some day. Suffice to say all of you that have commented are awesome and pretty much the only thing that keeps me writing (that and my besties prodding me with love and holding my hand).

So, yes... adore you all. Thank you so, so very much for reading my stuff and just being awesomely you.

Crossposts: http://afullmargin.livejournal.com/206879.html

Okay, lets face it - my writing output this year has been abysmal at best. I had that short burst of Henry/Karen last month but on the whole I'm not getting a whole lot done and that makes me feel really sad and inadequate.

So, I'm gonna do what I should have done in the first place. In addition to my monthly goals (which aren't stopping) I'm going to set a daily goal and post whether I made it or not and give myself time to ramble on what I'm working on. This serves two purposes, one to make a public showing and force myself to try and meet my goals (seriously, I do better under pressure - even if it is all in my head) and two, to get me *excited* about my writing again. Because right now, I'm kind of hating everything I do. I think if I have a forum to talk about what I'm writing and maybe someone else will get excited and comment (please do!) and that will lead to me writing even more because I want to finish it and show anyone excited about it the finished product.

I don't know if that makes sense or not. BUT it stands. So, for now until I say otherwise, I'm establishing a minimum daily word count of 500 hundred words. This is easy and achievable and if I hit it often enough, I'll adjust it higher. For now, I'm happy with that.

So, you'll be hearing from me before I go to bed and you can see how I did. <3

Crossposts: http://afullmargin.livejournal.com/201462.html

I should be writing. The muse is there, the ideas are kicking my ass and I'm staring at Word completely overwhelmed. For the first time in my life it's not the blank page that's killing me - it's doubting my own abilities. I can't stop comparing myself to those around me, and feeling like when it comes to actual quality for my readers it isn't worth the effort I put into it.

Up until recently, I've seen measurable improvement in my skills - every year my work is a little more readable when I go back. And now I can't help but wonder if that shouldn't have been a sign to quit while I'm ahead. I know I'm not terrible by any means, I'm adequate. Average. My skill level is acceptable, sloppy at times, but not horrific - but also not brilliant. I want to be brilliant. I want to do justice to my characters, to my stories, and most of all to people that want to read the sort of stuff I like to write.

The problem is, I feel like I've hit my peak - everything I've written this year has been no better than what I did last year, and in some respects it's getting worse. Where do I go from here? How do I get better? You people know my writing better than anyone, and I hope if you're interested enough to follow what I throw out here you might have some sort of ideas.

What can I do to be better than average? How would YOU like to see me improve?

Current Mood: curious
Crossposts: http://afullmargin.livejournal.com/195393.html

I have insane amounts of work to get done before I can play. :(

-read history ch 14
-write Lincoln image analysis paper (5-6 pages)
-learning outcomes assessment (2 pages)
-Psychology quizzes 14 & 15
-discussion board porn vs erotica
-final exam
-math take home test ch. 15
-homework ch. 15
-final exam study guide

All of those need to be done by Sunday night. No idea if I am getting my respite time this weekend & I can't use my laptop before 8 until Thursday & then only whem boys are at school.

Stress so very much stress.

Current Mood: stressed
Crossposts: http://afullmargin.livejournal.com/195269.html

Have an icon of my favorite bear in a bath. Because I'm in a rambling sort of mood.

It's one in the morning and I'm up doing Milliways RP stuffs when I legitimately should be sleeping as Big will be home from school tomorrow and I've got school stuff that needs to be done this weekend. That said, I've managed to move on to the next big part of Michael's story arc, finished up with Gus and the Devil (yeah, that went "well"), working on getting Henry up and rolling pending Karen-mun's approval and having entirely too much fun with them, Archie is (as he should be) lost and confused and just a little angsty. And, I finally gave in to wanting a female muse that was not only available for play but one that I could reasonably pull off - as such I worked up a first season TBBT Penny muse that I'm voice testing.

Boys are going through rounds of getting sick. I'm getting over being sick.

And school is down to the last three weeks so everyone is panicking and instructors are collecting major projects... so. Yeah. Good times.

Also, I really want to write fic. I have no idea what, but I've got a half dozen ideas poking my brain. It's been entirely too long.

Crossposts: http://afullmargin.livejournal.com/194526.html

There are things I should be saying, things I want to say and can't pull together coherently.

Instead, I'll be over here cringing and waiting for this semester to end so I can suffer through another summer I don't want to be part of and wish I were any where but here right now.

Thank goodness for the joy in superficial things.

Crossposts: http://afullmargin.livejournal.com/194208.html

It has been asked that I keep people up to date on what's going on with my fic. :p As though hearing me whine about it on twitter isn't enough. Basic breakdown of what I'm working on:

Psych fic "Growing" (Gus/Shawn/Juliet "Happy-Verse") is finished and being prepped for posting on 2/3 as part of the Poly Fandom Big Bang.

Re-Animator series fic "Reunion" (Herbert/Dan, Dan/OFC) for Small Fandom Bang is done in rough draft form, sent to beta and being put on the backburner until March-ish.

Psych fic "Memories" (Henry/Karen) is about 2/3 done and I'm hoping to finish it up in the next couple days before Porn Battle.

After that, I'm pretty much gonna try to do as many of the insane number of PB fills I want to do and then back to the folder of half finished stuff including Psych RPF (damn you Andy Berman for being adorable), more of my "Happy-Verse", more "Journey-Verse Henry/Carlton, and the usual assortment of random bits and bobs.