Things I should be doing
May. 11th, 2012 12:22 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
afullmarginI should be writing. The muse is there, the ideas are kicking my ass and I'm staring at Word completely overwhelmed. For the first time in my life it's not the blank page that's killing me - it's doubting my own abilities. I can't stop comparing myself to those around me, and feeling like when it comes to actual quality for my readers it isn't worth the effort I put into it.
Up until recently, I've seen measurable improvement in my skills - every year my work is a little more readable when I go back. And now I can't help but wonder if that shouldn't have been a sign to quit while I'm ahead. I know I'm not terrible by any means, I'm adequate. Average. My skill level is acceptable, sloppy at times, but not horrific - but also not brilliant. I want to be brilliant. I want to do justice to my characters, to my stories, and most of all to people that want to read the sort of stuff I like to write.
The problem is, I feel like I've hit my peak - everything I've written this year has been no better than what I did last year, and in some respects it's getting worse. Where do I go from here? How do I get better? You people know my writing better than anyone, and I hope if you're interested enough to follow what I throw out here you might have some sort of ideas.
What can I do to be better than average? How would YOU like to see me improve?
Up until recently, I've seen measurable improvement in my skills - every year my work is a little more readable when I go back. And now I can't help but wonder if that shouldn't have been a sign to quit while I'm ahead. I know I'm not terrible by any means, I'm adequate. Average. My skill level is acceptable, sloppy at times, but not horrific - but also not brilliant. I want to be brilliant. I want to do justice to my characters, to my stories, and most of all to people that want to read the sort of stuff I like to write.
The problem is, I feel like I've hit my peak - everything I've written this year has been no better than what I did last year, and in some respects it's getting worse. Where do I go from here? How do I get better? You people know my writing better than anyone, and I hope if you're interested enough to follow what I throw out here you might have some sort of ideas.
What can I do to be better than average? How would YOU like to see me improve?
